Rebel Angels – Libba Bray

•October 11, 2017 • Leave a Comment

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Synopsis

Ah, Christmas! Gemma Doyle is looking forward to a holiday from Spence Academy, spending time with her friends in the city, attending ritzy balls, and on a somber note, tending to her ailing father. As she prepares to ring in the New Year, 1896, a handsome young man, Lord Denby, has set his sights on Gemma, or so it seems. Yet amidst the distractions of London, Gemma’s visions intensify–visions of three girls dressed in white, to whom something horrific has happened, something only the realms can explain…

The lure is strong, and before long, Gemma, Felicity, and Ann are turning flowers into butterflies in the enchanted world of the realms that Gemma alone can bring them to. To the girls’ great joy, their beloved Pippa is there as well, eager to complete their circle of friendship.

But all is not well in the realms–or out. The mysterious Kartik has reappeared, telling Gemma she must find the Temple and bind the magic, else great disaster will befall her. Gemma’s willing to do his intrusive bidding, despite the dangers it brings, for it means she will meet up with her mother’s greatest friend–and now her foe, Circe. Until Circe is destroyed, Gemma cannot live out her destiny. But finding Circe proves a most perilous task.

My Thoughts

With as much promise as the first installment of this trilogy had, part two falls a wee bit dry for me. While there is drama galore to keep things moving forward, much of the drama revolves around traipsing through English society.

Gemma meets a seemingly lovely gentleman (Victorian England’s version of the “nice guy”), must be seen and act accordingly around all the “proper” people, and most important of all she must not under any circumstances be anything other than what is expected of her. Was it important to the overall plot and character growth? Absolutely. Did I find it rather boring? Also absolutely. The politics of society ladies is just not my thing. To be fair, it seems it isn’t Gemma’s either.

Gemma is stuck somewhere between being a proper lady, and needing to free herself of her imposed expectations and properly mend the damage done to the realms. She works overtime trying to find Circe and keep both her family and friends pleased with her. It’s a delicate balancing act.

Gemma is not all that good at balance – but what sixteen year old is? She’s barely just grasped proper etiquette and manners befitting a proper English lady. And now she’s tasked with – essentially – saving the realms. It’s a lot for anyone to handle. Gemma does it with as much grace as she can, often proving wiser than anyone expects her to be.

This is where I have to remember that being sixteen in 1896 is VERY different than being sixteen in the 21st century. Teenagers were more or less expected to be grown adults, and act accordingly with barely any time to go through puberty let alone mature emotionally and psychologically. The pressure is a brick wall that Gemma keeps running into.

Slowly and surely, Gemma stands her ground more often than not – she puts herself first in some cases (how utterly unthinkable!) and does what needs doing, even at the risk of, well, pissing everyone else off.

The pieces of the puzzle start fitting themselves together with the arrival of a new teacher at Spence. Gemma, paranoid and suspicious due to her circumstances (if not by virtue of her personality) is immediately on edge. And rightly so. Time and again, Gemma proves that her instincts are quite spot-on, even if she can’t quite grasp the initial reasoning. This teacher proves to be wholly untrustworthy and dangerous. Gemma putting her in her place is one of the best moments of the book.

By the book’s end, Gemma has grown and matured almost beyond her years, and is so much stronger for it. She has very clear goals, and knows what she must do in order to accomplish them – the Order, the Rakshana, and Circe be bloody damned. Things are changing, and Gemma is set to watch them change. And her first step – changing things with Kartik.

There are a couple steamy moments between the two – very brief, yet charged. Gemma needs Kartik in ways I don’t think she realizes yet. He is, first and foremost (in her mind) her friend. As such, he is necessary, and welcome, in her plans and goals. The finale of this trilogy is going to be explosive – and I can’t wait to watch all the rubble fall.

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On Disappointment, Let Downs, and Self-Care

•August 30, 2017 • 1 Comment

Long time no talk. Remember my last personal post, when I was so excited for all the good things this year was supposed to bring? Yeah. Just about all of them blew up in my face in a very short period of time. Also, warning for language – I’m not holding anything back.

I had to leave school due to a very personal tragedy that hit my family like a tonne of bricks. While I don’t want to go into the details of that, what I can say is that there was a long grieving and acceptance process that accompanied my own personal disappointment at quitting school. There was a solid month where everything was up in the air – I wasn’t sure if I was going to have to take off at a moment’s notice or not. Then it happened, and I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to come home for some time. Thankfully, that settled, but it left a very large, very empty hole in my heart. And the uncertainty about my academics.

If there’s one thing I hate admitting to myself, it’s that I can’t do something. And, well, I couldn’t do school. It was not an easy decision to make, and I was faced with a lot of negativity. In trying to take care of myself, and prioritize what was more important, hearing your best friend say “I knew you’d quit, you’re not cut out for this” hurt like a motherfucker. That comment overshadowed a lot of the support I did receive, and clouded my vision for weeks on end.

I have since severed ties with this person. Again, not an easy decision to make, but in the face of his toxicity, I realized I needed to move on, and nurture friendships that were more mutually supportive, kind, and fruitful. This person had been a very dark shadow in other ways – ways that were detrimental to my wellbeing and mental health.

Cutting ties with a person is never easy – it’s never fun, and it always hurts. But in the few weeks that I haven’t been in contact with this person (whom knows why I needed space and separation – again, not an easy conversation), I’ve been piecing my confidence and self-esteem back together. I’ve been healing. And that’s exactly what I need at the moment.

It took time, work, and effort, but I got back to a healthier headspace, and began going on, working hard, and putting my all into my work again. And for a while, things were good – great even! And then I was told that a project I had put my heart and soul into for the last year and a half had been scrapped. Now that was a fucking hard pill to swallow.

I spent a year working with a great team of individuals. We got to know each other, and trust each other. I have yet to receive a reason for the termination, but I am angry, sad, and still very sore about it. I had put book reading to the way-side for this project, as it was picking up steam and reaching a potential end point. And now, nothing.

I have options, I know I have options. It doesn’t make the rejection hurt any less. Any contact I get from these individuals wishing me well, and wishing the best for my endeavors elsewhere feel shallow. I know they’re not – I know they truly do sincerely mean these things. But at the moment, my emotions are clouding that. (Hey, at least I realize it, right?)

I’ve put a lot on hold this year, and I’ve been a shell of who I used to be. And none of this includes the anger and despair I feel over world events, politics, and discourses. I don’t even want to get started on that – I don’t have the energy to be this angry anymore, to be honest.

While I’ve been reeling, what I’ve realized is that to give the best of myself, I need to care for myself as well. And that’s what I plan on doing for the next little while. My book reviews and writing need to fall to the side for the moment while I get myself back.

I still want to learn as much as I can about anything I can, but I want to do it on my terms. Which, to me, means reading anything and everything. I still do read a lot – I just don’t review everything I read. So, while I’m taking care of myself, I’m hoping to get back to my usual pace in time. And yes, it will take time – and I need to be okay with that.

All of that being said, hopefully I will be back, and see you all soon. Good vibes all around!

xoxo – Aubrey.

A Great and Terrible Beauty – Libba Bray

•July 5, 2017 • Leave a Comment

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Synopsis

A Victorian boarding school story, a Gothic mansion mystery, a gossipy romp about a clique of girlfriends, and a dark other-worldly fantasy—jumble them all together and you have this complicated and unusual first novel.

Sixteen-year-old Gemma has had an unconventional upbringing in India, until the day she foresees her mother’s death in a black, swirling vision that turns out to be true. Sent back to England, she is enrolled at Spence, a girls’ academy with a mysterious burned-out East Wing. There Gemma is snubbed by powerful Felicity, beautiful Pippa, and even her own dumpy roommate Ann, until she blackmails herself and Ann into the treacherous clique. Gemma is distressed to find that she has been followed from India by Kartik, a beautiful young man who warns her to fight off the visions. Nevertheless, they continue, and one night she is led by a child-spirit to find a diary that reveals the secrets of a mystical Order. The clique soon finds a way to accompany Gemma to the other-world realms of her visions “for a bit of fun” and to taste the power they will never have as Victorian wives, but they discover that the delights of the realms are overwhelmed by a menace they cannot control. Gemma is left with the knowledge that her role as the link between worlds leaves her with a mission to seek out the “others” and rebuild the Order.

My Thoughts

I remember reading this trilogy well over 10 years ago in high school, but I remember very little of it. Now, as an adult, I thought I’d give it another go. I was not disappointed.

Gemma is your average teenage girl. She longs to find a place to belong, to fit in, to be a part of something. Oh, she’s a part of something alright – but this something is far bigger, and far more dangerous than she could have ever imagined. Sometimes her emotions get the better of her – and that’s okay. This happens to everyone – teenagers and adults alike. She’s especially anxious at being thrust into an unfamiliar situation, with slightly unfamiliar expectations being thrust upon her.

Spence Academy really is just a Victorian reflection of any other high school – you have the cliques and the popular crowd, the bullied and the demeaned. However, much of that is exacerbated by the fact that many of these girls come from money; prestigious families looking to better their names. These girls are nothing more than a mirror with which to reflect back forced indoctrination befitting families of a certain status.

As Gemma says herself, the girls of Spence are “hollow vessels of girls to be rinsed of our own ambitions, wants, and opinions, just waiting to be filled with the cool, tepid water of gracious compliance.” I realize this is a common enough sentiment of the treatment of women in Victorian England, but a lot of those sentiments still ring true today – women are expected to be certain ways, and if they’re not, they’re told to expect less than humane treatment from men around them. Pardon my language, but it’s fucking bullshit. Gemma sees this loud and clear and is quite intent to rebel. The other three in the clique see and experience this in varying degrees – choosing to rebel in their own ways, as well, though maybe not as brazenly as Gemma. (Well, brazen for Victorian days, I suppose.)

There is also a mystery that Gemma is set on solving, and boy howdy did she get the shock of a lifetime as she solves it. Though a tough pill to swallow, Gemma marches on and tries to do what she thinks is best. This world of realms that she’s discovered – this magic that is live within her – is tricky, difficult, and dangerous. She’s intent on mastering it, despite the Rakshana – the guardians – being dead set against this.

As Kartik keeps a watch over her in order to keep Gemma’s visions from getting stronger, she’s drawn to him just as much as she rebels against him. This tiny bit rebellious will-they-won’t-they romance is very well balanced, as it doesn’t take over the entire plot. I quite like that. Their acquaintance is dark and steamy, and just the right amount to push forward, without being overwhelming. Gemma’s main objective is still learning about the magic, and finding out what happened to her mother.

Gemma is trying desperately to learn as much as she can, from as many sources as she can, to better understand her role in this entire endeavor – and do avoid the wrath of Circe at all costs. Her adventures have just begun as she must balance being an exemplary lady of Spence, as well as one of the new Order. Hopefully, this is a balancing act that doesn’t cost her any more than it already has.

The Diamond Conspiracy – Pip Ballantine & Tee Morris

•June 30, 2017 • Leave a Comment

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Synopsis

For years, the Ministry of Peculiar Occurrences has enjoyed the favor of Her Majesty the Queen. But even the oldest loyalties can turn in a moment…

Having narrowly escaped the electrifying machinations of Thomas Edison, Books and Braun are looking forward to a relaxing and possibly romantic voyage home. But when Braun’s emergency signal goes off, all thoughts of recreation vanish. Braun’s street-wise team of child informants, the Ministry Seven, is in grave peril, and Books and Braun must return to England immediately.

But when the intrepid agents finally arrive in London, the situation is even more dire than they imagined. The Ministry has been disavowed, and the Department of Imperial Inconveniences has been called in to decommission its agents in a most deadly fashion. The plan reeks of the Maestro’s dastardly scheming. Only, this time, he has a dangerous new ally—a duplicitous doctor whose pernicious poisons have infected the highest levels of society, reaching even the Queen herself…

My Thoughts

Warning for strong language – HOLY SHIT.

That, dear friends, was my very last thought reading this book. It is a perfect summation of my feelings throughout the majority of the events that transpired within these pages, because, holy shit, I could not let my guard down for a moment! (I do apologize for such strong language, but sometimes it’s necessary [my partner says I curse like a pirate, anyway.])

We left off with Books and Braun finally – FINALLY! – getting their act together and properly becoming a most charming, and sassy, couple. Watching them work through problems, and never once faltering in their utter devotion to each other was a treat! They’re in this for the long haul, and it’s apparent that neither would have it any other way. Huzzah!

Amidst the Ministry falling, the Queen losing her marbles, and the most devious manipulation I’ve seen in a while, there is never a dull moment. The Ministry finds allies in the most peculiar places, and secrets that were safeguarded for decades come to light. There are moments where it takes a second to wrap your head around everything. It felt rather like someone had dumped everything on my head and stated “Here, have all this information, see what you can do with it, yeah?” and sauntered off into the sunset. Nevertheless, clues come together to form one brilliant twist after another.

The manipulation and trickery orchestrated by the puppeteer is extremely intricate. Without much fuss, he’s managed to get to the Queen, as well as her most loyal aides and allies. The ending blow-up is such cacophony, one would think there are no surprises left. One would be dead bloody wrong. This cliffhanger sent such a shiver up my spine, my teeth started chattering.

The Ministry still has to pick itself up, and rise from the ashes as they set to right what this puppeteer attempted to annihilate. It’s going to be an interesting ride getting there.

Darkest Mercy – Melissa Marr

•June 28, 2017 • 2 Comments

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Synopsis

The Summer King is missing; the Dark Court is bleeding; and a stranger walks the streets of Huntsdale, his presence signifying the deaths of powerful fey.

Aislinn tends to the Summer Court, searching for her absent king and yearning for Seth. Torn between his new queen and his old love, Keenan works from afar to strengthen his court against the coming war. Donia longs for fiery passion even as she coolly readies the Winter Court for battle. And Seth, sworn brother of the Dark King and heir to the High Queen, is about to make a mistake that could cost his life.

Love, despair, and betrayal ignite the Faery Courts, and in the final conflict, some will win…and some will lose everything.

My Thoughts

Darkest Mercy concludes a series that has been difficult for me, at times, and has surprised me in many ways. This conclusion was far better than I could have hoped for.

There is an ever-changing point of view which can be confusing at times. However, it makes the intricacies of the plot move along at a fast, often hurried and harried, pace. Overall, this establishes a sense of urgency and desperation to the overall plot. I read through this book in a matter of hours, barely remember to take note in important facts or things I found worth mentioning.

Every single character undergoes some form of significant change – mostly to their character – as they strive to achieve what they want in the face of pending doom. So much character development – especially with Keenan! – it made my head spin, in a very good way.

While this review remains short, the fact that this is a brilliant conclusion to a strange, intriguing, and sometimes frustratingly infuriating series remains the same. I am very glad I went on this adventure, and I am glad to have learned some things along the way.

I am left now with one pressing question – which series/trilogy to embark on next!

Radiant Shadows – Melissa Marr

•May 23, 2017 • Leave a Comment

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Synopsis

Hunger for nourishment.
Hunger for touch.
Hunger to belong.

Half-human and half-faery, Ani is driven by her hungers.

Those same appetites also attract powerful enemies and uncertain allies, including Devlin. He was created as an assassin and is brother to the faeries’ coolly logical High Queen and to her chaotic twin, the embodiment of War. Devlin wants to keep Ani safe from his sisters, knowing that if he fails, he will be the instrument of Ani’s death.

Ani isn’t one to be guarded while others fight battles for her, though. She has the courage to protect herself and the ability to alter Devlin’s plans—and his life. The two are drawn together, each with reason to fear the other and to fear for one another. But as they grow closer, a larger threat imperils the whole of Faerie. Will saving the faery realm mean losing each other?

My Thoughts

Radiant Shadows definitely redeemed the Wicked Lovely series for me. I have not been quiet about how disgusting I find the behaviour of most faeries in this series, and how those behaviours affect those around them. (Yes, I am aware this is a common faerie thing, doesn’t mean I have to like it, and it doesn’t mean all fey have to be such assholes.) Radiant Shadows shows very little of this behaviour – rather than all out disgust, I feel something more akin to annoyance and irritation, most of which stemming from how self-important and arrogant Sorcha is as High Queen. But, that I can handle, no problem.

Things are starting to fall apart, both in the world of Faerie, and in the mortal world. Bananach is out for blood – specifically a certain type of blood. There is a disaster coming – both beautiful and devastating. Radiant Shadows dives into more of the politics, scheming, conniving, and planning involved in winning this war that Bananach is hell-bent on having. It was a very intriguing twist. Diving into the politics of the fey added layers to what otherwise sometimes felt like a shallow plot.

Something I’d forgotten when I’d been critical of fey behaviour is that, first and foremost, the fey will, and do, manipulate and deceive each other. Though incapable of lying, they can carefully choose words, and twist meanings. Radiant Shadows reminded me that while faeries are inherently unkind to mortals, they are absolutely cruel to each other.

In the middle of all this is Devlin – the Sorcha’s assassin. Devlin is unlike most of the male fey I’ve read so far, and that’s a good thing. There are parts of him that feel more human than faerie, which is both unusual and refreshing. Devlin is careful – he chooses his words carefully, he is careful to nourish his relationships and friendships, and (most importantly, in my opinion) he is careful about consent. This was a major game changer for me!

Devlin and Ani prove to be big influences in what seems to be a major disaster coming. With the help of Rae, a dreamwalker whom I can’t help but adore to bits and pieces, they accomplish what others once thought impossible.

Considering how wary I’ve been about the other books in this series, I am really looking forward to seeing how this all wraps up in the fifth and final installment.

Tales from the Shadowhunters Academy – Cassandra Clare, Sarah Rees Brennan, Maureen Johnson, Robin Wasserman

•May 22, 2017 • Leave a Comment

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Synopsis

Simon Lewis has been a human and a vampire, and now he is becoming a Shadowhunter. But the events of City of Heavenly Fire left him stripped of his memories, and Simon isn’t sure who he is anymore. He knows he was friends with Clary, and that he convinced the total goddess Isabelle Lightwood to go out with him…but he doesn’t know how. And when Clary and Isabelle look at him, expecting him to be a man he doesn’t remember…Simon can’t take it.

So when the Shadowhunter Academy reopens, Simon throws himself into this new world of demon-hunting, determined to find himself again. His new self. Whomever this new Simon might be.

But the Academy is a Shadowhunter institution, which means it has some problems. Like the fact that non-Shadowhunter students have to live in the basement. And that differences—like being a former vampire—are greatly looked down upon. At least Simon is trained in weaponry—even if it’s only from hours of playing D&D.

Join Simon on his journey to become a Shadowhunter, and learn about the Academy’s illustrious history along the way, through guest lecturers such as Jace Herondale, Tessa Gray, and Magnus Bane. These ten short stories give an epilogue to the Mortal Instruments series and provide glimpses of what’s in store in the Dark Artifices.

My Thoughts

This anthology was certainly informative. We learn quite a bit about the past in this anthology which helps illuminate a lot of the goings on in both The Infernal Devices trilogy, and The Mortal Instruments series. There are also a lot of major hints as to what’s coming ahead in The Dark Artifices trilogy. It’s going to be quite the rollercoaster, that’s for sure.

Simon has a very interesting perspective – he tries to understand Shadowhunter tradition, while simultaneously calling out the bullshit. It is refreshing, and a lot of fun, to read about the Academy from Simon’s point of view. (Simon has some especially imaginative language in regards to what passes for food.)

He sees the class division, the elitism, and the snobbery, and he has absolutely zero respect for it. Going through, story by story, it becomes more and more clear that the more these children are indoctrinated into the traditions and particular ways of the Shadowhunters. This indoctrination is antiquated and archaic – it’s been proven time and time again that Shadowhunters are terrified of change. The roots these traditions, stereotypes, and methods have stem from centuries of fear and hatred. (Spoiler alert – if history tells us anything, it’s that doing something drastic – like policy making and law making – out of fear and hatred never ends well.)

There are many real world parallels found here, many of which infuriate me to no end, but that’s a much larger discussion for another day, on another platform.

Simon seems keen on challenging these traditions, or at least the archaic thought processes. By the last story, I am confident that Simon is going to work towards changing things for the better. Progress has already started – much to my delight – but it’s going to take a lot more effort, and much more time to get the ball rolling. These Tales give me high hopes for The Dark Artifices.